I just had a re read of this thread. All the advice is wonderful and now that I'm experiencing it, I 'get' it a lot more.

DD2 is currently in the nursery in a humidity-crib. She is perfectly healthy apart from her weight (ended up only being 1.84kg). At the moment I'm barely allowed to hold her as everytime we get her out she chucks up her feed. The midwives are hoping its just due to all the mucus and that will stop shortly. I'm just hoping she doesn't end up with really bad reflux like her big sis!

At the moment I'm really struggling with not being able to hold her whenever I want. I know it's best for her, but after having a full-term bubs in my room, being able to cuddle all day long its such a shock. I know I shouldn't complain, many of you have had it far worse, but I'm feeling a little sorry for myself at the moment. Poor midwives sometime just need to look at me and I'm in tears lol. It's also hard trying to explain this to my eager visitors who just want to hold her too....

I'm currently trying to express about every 3 hours. I only did 3.5 hourly last night as I was so exhausted and emotional from very little sleep the past two nights that I needed to try to get some bigger chunks. I actually had a couple of midwives tell me to forget expressing overnight and just try to sleep and start again this morning but I just couldn't do that. At least by doing it I feel like I'm being a 'Mum' and doing something for my baby (does that make sense or do I just sound crazy?). Since its all just colostrum I'm only getting 3-5ml at a time, but the midwives seem to be saying that's more than average (although maybe they just don't want me to cry again lol). I'm hoping my milk comes in today.

Anyway thanks if you read all this. Sorry if it sounds wingey (like I said, I know things in my case would be a lot better than some of you).