Simone - Firstly, congratulations!! I am so glad that Anneliese is doing well and is healthy. Her agpars were fantastic, and to be holding her temp and breastfeeding already is also fantastic. You are obviously doing a great job!!!
Please don't feel guilty, I know that when your bub is born early you look for a reason and someone to blame...in your situation you are blaming yourself, but sometimes these things just happen and there is nothing that you could have done to change it. It is not your fault and nothing that you could have done would have caused this to happen.
Just the same, I understand how you feel...I also tried to find someone to blame, including myself....it does take time and talking for these feelings to subside.
My DD was born at 28.6wks and is doing so well. Apparently they catch up at about 2 yrs.
Simone - Anneliese sounds like she is a real fighter and is doing so well...you are obviously doing a fabulouse job sweetie!!!