Thanks Sally.

Caitlin is doing so well - her required number of good blood sugar levels have been achieved, she is not having any interventions other than her feed tube and is amazing me with everything she does. We are currently working on getting her to associate full tum with breast (limited suck reflex so far) and I am busy expressing to try and get her over to full EBM feeds via the tube now that her sugars have stablised.

I had a big big cry tonight - one of the NICU nurses spoke to me in a manner that made me feel like a 4 year old - I would have thought that working in such an area she would have realised the range of emotions I am going through and maybe given me the infomation about NICU/SCN processes (ie not picking them up unless they are already awake, apparently I don't have to go up for every single tube feed ( um well what if I WANT TO!!) - anyway, I broke down and told DP I would see him back on my ward... I was going to snot that nurse... I mean far out - I am a first time mum, with a prem bub and she treats me like a two year old... it is so hard being here in the mat ward and hearing all the newborns crying and knowing that my girl can't be with me just now.