Thanks Leesa - yesterday was a huge culmination of all the emotions I had experienced until that point and it was nice to get it all out. Sorry that you went through a similar experience

Tiffany, thanks - she is a treasure. The weirdest thing for me is that I work at the hospital we are at and I know that there are huge variances in nurses personalities and mannerisms but dealing with them as a colleauge (I work in Human Resources) and then dealing with them as a patient is a HUGE contrast - one I probably didn't give a lot of thought to lol. I did feel a lot better after the cry and it also gave me a good nights sleep.

She is in an open cot thing (will have to take a pic) and the only cords she has are the monitors and her feeding tube. No drips, IVs etc etc. So I am going up for each feed now and we are doing a breast feed first before every second feed.

Sally, its ok - I get the perspective thing - just super hormonal and it all hit me at once. I might ask one of the other nurses to go through the info with me again - re processes, when I can pick her up so I know in my head what is happening. Not sure what an isolette is but I think she is in an open cot - as I said to Tiff, might be best to take a photo and post it. Thank you - Bonham08 speaks very highly of you and when we knew that Caitlin may be early she suggested I contact you because you are such an inspiration xox. Sorry the boys are ill... i hope a small break comes your way soon xox