hi there
im not in your position of having a prem baby, but just wanted to say i think nearly all babies have sleep issues, no matter when they are born... my little one seems to getting the hang of sleeping now and she is 8 months, but we still have our bad days and bad nights...
re: the looking back on your baby's time in hospital, i can really understand how u are feeling.... totally not the same, but i had a traumatic birth and for the first couple of hours couldn't even look at my baby let alone hold her, because i was in a state of complete and utter shock... she was a few days old before i even cuddled her. when i think back to that time i get so guilty and teary and angry at how things went, that my little one didnt 'really' have her mother for quite some time because of the birth going wrong. i can't imagine how you would feel thinking of bubs in the nursery.... just wanted to say i sort of have an incling of how u feel and can understand it. i had a session with a counsellor re the birth and it really helped to get it all out. i also started to write a letter of complaint to the hospital, and found that really therapeutic, even though i never sent it. sometimes talking and writing gets things off your chest and helps with the release of it all. maybe some of that might help, maybe not.... hope your little one is well and try not to worry about the sleep thing, babies and sleep problems go hand in hand, babies that sleep okay are a rarity not the norm, honest.