Hi There,
My little girl was sick when she was born but she wasn't premmie. She spent a time in the NICU and we were told she wasn't going to make it. Well she did & she was a beautiful, bouncing little baby in no time. It still took me a LONG time to get over her birth & the fact that I nearly lost her. I too thought I had PND, I went to my local Early Childhood Centre, who arranged home visits & councilling sessions. In the end, I had post traumatic stress, rather than PND. Perhaps you just need to debrief about what happened to your little one. The NICU can be a scarey, sad place & I know how you feel. I couldn't associate with those who hadn't bonded with their baby but I felt sad & cried constantly about her being sick at birth. Go & see some one. You have nothing to lose. It's free. You'll feel heaps better. Otherwise, try putting your birth story on this site. It might make you feel better just by putting it on paper. My thoughts are with you.