Kel - that is a lovely thing your DH has done Please don't worry about me when you share the good stuff. I know Greg is not here to do those things for me now but he used to and it is lovely to see others getting spoilt so beautifully too. You deserve to enjoy the special moments with the love of your life. Life itself is too short. Make the most of every moment

On that note, tomorrow will be tough but at the moment it will be no tougher than any other day. I had acupuncture last night which helped immensely (although with minimal sleep from the disrupted toddler the effects have decreased today ) and I have a crystal healing session and another acupuncture appointment arranged for next week. And a chiropractor appointment too A bit busy but I need to take care of my physical and emotional self to be able to keep on going with the little ones. I have a very short temper at the moment and with DS pushing the boundaries (and his sister!!!) I am not being as calm with him as I have previously or as I should be. I feel bad for that. As a gentle parenting advocate, DS has had a few bottom smacks over the past few days and I am disappointed to have started on that path. It needs correction now. It is not the way we chose to parent and without Greg I need to follow our path we set out on.

Feeling like a viral illness is about to catch up with me so I will be back later.

Lee - so proud of you taking that first step