Michelle - don't feel bad about a few little smacks - your little ones are pushing, and you are feeling it even more without Greg's support and involvement in those everyday challenges. It took me ages to realise and accept that I was 'allowed' to do things differently with the children after Chris died - some things were impossible to keep up with after he died, so I had to do things differently than we had planned, or that suited my new 'single' life. After he died I really had to work hard at getting my 2 (aged 2 and 4) into a better bed routine, I just couldn't do the hard miles at night, I needed rest, and I especially needed time for me, time to grieve, time to talk to friends - nighttime was my time, not the children's. I don't want to tell you what to do, but I do think now is a good time for you to get your little people in a good bedtime routine, keep it strict, as you are going to need this when George arrives (easier said than done I know) but it's as much for your sanity than anyone elses, and it may involve some tears, but probably not many in the scheme of things. Have you got a friend that can help you out with this?

I'm "okay", trying not to think too much right now............. the meds have zonked me out, don't like that, but will perservere....

Lee xoxoxoxoxoxo