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Hello lovelies,
Deb - oh hun I cant imagine how heartbreaking the situation with DD14 is but like all girls, she will come home to her mamma one day. Right now she is an angry teenager, and when the anger fades she will need to feel her mamma's love and arms around her. BTW FOTY is a total *********! How is the gorgeous Immy doing?
Kelly - Im so happy things are going well its great to have a new pregnancy in here!
Janie - how are your gorgeous boys? Me thinks we should organise a catch up for next month if you and Kel are up for it? Id love to meet little Mr D.
Anna - hope stellan is better.
Laney - sending you love and support sweety for your appointment.
Mako - Im sorry your having a bit of a rough time sweets. Im sure the universe will throw something special your way, it just has to xx
BW - Hope you have some improvment soon sweety and for now, make the most of being home with your gorgeous boy.
Michelle - thinking of you every day sweets. Only a few weeks to go til you meet your new son - hoping that physically all is well. Emotionally, well Im sure that changes from day to day, and I know that George's arrival will fill you with new love and hope, and will bring you a small piece of Greg that will for a moment warm your heart and soul. Hope Oscar and Lilly are well.
Jayne - im so excited about your trip to Melb!
A big cheerio to everyone else.
AFM - all is well. Natalya is just soooo cute, her smiles are so radiant and they really do light up my heart every time. She has the most amazing eyes, ones that are knowing and full of light. She generally feeds well, but her sleeping could be better especially during the day. She is a cat napper. Miss A is going great guns and I just cant believe how much she growing and learning. Only problem there is she has started waking in the middle of the night, this morning she was up at 4am, walked to the couch with her blanky and pillow and fell asleep again. She is still there and I couldnt lift her up to bed because of my back. I need to loose weight ladies, any tips on how to diet while BF?? Im on the teadmill most days but i need to look at doing something with my eating if I really want to shed some kg's.
I hope you are all well and I do think of you all daily, I just dont have time to post much and since Michelle lost Greg I dont feel the same about posting. I know Michelle if you are reading this you will scold me, but I dont know what it is, its the sadness for you, the guilts that I still have my DH or just a combination of things. Michelle was the first person to welcome me to BB and has been in my on line world and my heart ever since and I still feel so much pain for her. I hope those of you who are seeing her this week light up her day. Sorry ladies I just had to get that out there.
Hoping your all having a lovely Sunday with lots of hugs from your precious babes xx
Lisa
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Yes Lisa - I wil scold you :hug: My world at this point in time is incredibly sucky (and that is an understatement). It is hard on many levels and I am physically finding it difficult to do what I need to do, just because I am 32 weeks pregnant and carrying two toddlers in a house with multiple stairs. Even a trip to the shops hurts and I usually have someone else to push the trolley and no children with me. I am sad, lonely and overwhelmingly missing the man who should be here giving me a cuddle and making everything ok. I hate being dependent on others and on days like today (not a good one) I just physically hurt with the grief. The little things like sharing the parenting load, the wakeups and the early morning get ups and someone who loves your little ones as much as you do are my realities that no longer exist.
BUT I keep reading here to keep me centred. To help me connect with a world that has the *normal* ups and downs. To remind me there is another life out there and one day (I hope) I will be part of that kind of normal again. I need that reality because the dark place I currently live in can become all consuming without a focus point outside. I have a friend (same age as me) having chemo for a nasty form of breast cancer and both of us want to help the other. Despite our own situations, it is much easier to give to others and to focus on helping them than it is to wallow in your own pain. Other people and their problems are a distraction form the reality ;) - especially when the reality is a horrible place to exist.
So keep posting, keep complaining about the normal issues you are having and keep telling me about the good things too. Give me a chance to live vicariously in your life. And make sure the lessons you receive from me are to make the most of every minute you have. Love with all your heart, enjoy every smile, breathe every breath.
The love and support I receive from this little group is beyond words. It is beyond the space of BB. It is phone calls and messages and prayers and knowing that I am in your thoughts often that reminds me I am surrounded - even when I feel very much alone :grouphug:
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Michelle - Thinking of you constantly hun, you are an amazing woman who deserves so much more than what life has dished out to you... there has to be some wonderful things coming for you... all in time... and starting with George.
Lisa - Would definitely love a catch up ANYTIME!! Lets organise something. Also... I know how you feel about posting (I think we all do) but please don't stop!! I'm trying as hard as I can to keep going but often wonder if I've said too much or maybe not enough... iykwim.
Laney - Thinking of you too hun and praying that all will be ok. I hope the next few weeks go quickly and you are somehow able to relax a little (if that's possible)!
Mako - Massive hugs.. you have also been through so much lately and I just know there has to be some good news around the corner. Hope you're feeling a bit better today and thanks for your support (I know it's hard and I really do appreciate it).
BW - Hugs.. sounds like you're going through an incredibly tough time right now too and I hope things start to look up for you. I can imagine it's even harder becuase it seems to be out of your control.
Deb - OMG.. I honestly can't believe what you're going through right now. FOTY continues to outdo himself and it's so disappointing. You sound like you're dealing with it in the best possible way (you absolutely amaze me with your strength). I'm glad you're focusing on the things that are important (and that you can somewhat control). Good luck for Monday.
Spring - Glad you're back - Woo Hoo!!
Bun - Sorry we didn't get organised enough for a catch up.. I've been feeling a bit yuck still and have been desperately trying to get this house in order again! Hopefully we'll catch up next time you're in town!!
Lee - Hope you're enjoying Adelaide.. thinking of you.
Jayne - What's this I've been reading about Hives (on FB)?? Hope you guys are ok!
Big hello to everyone else that I've missed... I'm not really with it - LOL!!
AFM - All going well.. still feeling a bit yuck and having trouble eating dinner every night but still so thankful and excited about it all. My tummy is growing at a pretty good rate and I'm just loving having boobs again... it's the BEST!! LOL. Luke is great too.. we took him to the footy last night (DH got tickets from work) and he was brilliant. Was a late night but he coped well and fell asleep in the car.. so he slept in big boy undies last night (becuase I didn't want to wake him).. and he stayed DRY!!! He's ususally dry overnight but I haven't wanted to do the whole changing sheets in the middle of the night thing, so kept putting him in pull ups. Don't know whether to try and go there yet or not.. nights are supposed to be harder aren't they??? I didn't expect him to be ready for it just yet.
Well not much else going on... still waiting to feel some good movement from bub so I can start to relax a bit more (I know it's early but my placenta is at the back again and they keep tellling me I should feel movement early... and I felt it early with DS, so I'm just expecting it now)!!! And, I knocked the top of my leg really hard they other day and have the most amazing and massive bruise of my life!! It's seriously disgusting and HUGE... and ther's a massive lump. I don't think the asprin is helping (as I'm still taking it for this pg). Not nice.
Enough from me... I'm trying to keep the good news coming in here and trying to stay positive and happy (not easy for me right now)!! I'm praying there's some more good news in here soon.. we deserve it. Massive hugs.
Kel xxx
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Just a quick one from me this time but I have to share....I'm so proud of Sage this afternoon without me or DH sitting in his doorway :dance: This is the 1st time he's ever done this so I'm stoked!!!
We have travelled such a long and tough road to get to this point and we finally did it today. I'm not expecting him to do it again tonight but we shall see :)
Kelly Woohoo on Luke wearing undies to bed last night and staying dry too :clap: I bet you are so proud too ;)
Sorry for no more personals but I need to get dinner organised.
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Mako - thats awesome news hun!! How did he go last night.
Michelle - I love ya :hug: and I wish I could change things for you but ill do my best to try and keep this thread as normal as you need xx
Kel - yep some time in the next couple of weeks would be good - any day except Monday's are good for me.
Hope you all had a great weekend - mine was filled with visitors coming to see Natalya. Im buggered, last night was not a great one sleep wise and now im getting miss a ready for occasional care, also known as School!! She has even asked to go to 'school' two times a week :o
BBL
Lis xx
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Hi ladies,
A quick naughty post from me because I'm at work. My home computer has completely crapped itself, have no idea what to do - whether to take it in for repairs or just buy the laptop Alan has been talking about???
Claudia has been really ill with tonsilitis & I have been really sick with hives. I have no idea where i got them from - it's a regular thing for me, last time I had them was 2 years ago to the week, which is freaky, but I have been taking the meds I have been prescribed, only thing is each time I stop taking them, they come back, so I had taken them for double the time & will stop tomorrow & hopefully they will be gone.
I feel so left out that I can't post properly! I really need to get myself back online.
Oh yeah, now I have lost 11.3kg and I'm loving the new me! Claudia is about 14kg & I have nearly lost a toddler!!! I can't believe I was carrying around a toddler! It's disgusting!
I'm thinking of everybody all the time!!!
Love Jayne x
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I think we all need some huge :hug: in here right now. I am thinking of you all and what you are all going through. I hate that such lovely women have to go through so much when you deserve so very much better.
Deb - BOL for today hun, I hope all goes well. I can hardly imagine how much this must be hurting. I am confident though that DD14 WILL come back. She will see FWOTY for what he is eventually, but is probably very confused and hurt right now. You are a wonderful mum and she will remember that. And your other littlies sound like absolute gems.
laney - huge huge :hug: hun, things must be so hard right now. We are all thinking of you. Keep talking to us sweetie.
BW - I am so sorry to hear how awful you are feeling right now. However I am glad that you will get to see your gorgeous little boy more often and I am sure he will love it too!
mako - how are you doing hun?
Lisa - it is lovely to hear how precious your baby girl is. The smiles just melt your heart!! I also need to lose some weight but am finding it very hard while BFing. I don't want my milk affected, but I would like to lose a few kilos. I have started exercising but I also need to look at how much I eat! The trouble is that I am hungry all the time.
Michelle - you are the most amazing person. I have no idea how you are even holding it together but you also have the strength to come in here and read our posts and scold us for feeling bad for you! I am in awe hun. You are such a strong woman. I wish I was closer and could help out, even just sit with you in the evenings (as I know that is the time when I miss DH the most when he is away), and being so pregnant must make even the most mundane things so very hard.
Kelly - glad to hear that your pregnancy is going so well. I hope you start to feel some movement soon, and yay on the boobs!!! I feel the same way when I am preggers or BFing.
Hi to everyone else.
I am feeling down too as my sis and her partner of nearly 7 years have just broken up. She is devastated. They had just built a house together and she was wanting to have babies soon, so she feels that her life as she knew it is over completely. Apparently she is hysterical and sobbing constantly. She won't even talk to me because it hurts too much to talk. I hate living away from home at times like these. I just want to hug her and let her stay with us as long as she likes but I feel so helpless over here. I can't stand her hurting so much.
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Just a quick one to thank Mako, Willow and Freya (had to think so I didn't write the real names :lol:) for a lovely time catching up today and for the beautiful bears with our babies *in-utero* names on them. They are gorgeous :hug: and Lily was asleep before we got out of the carpark!!! Oscar on the other hand is refusing - again!!! So I am hoping he will stay awake until dinner time and an early night but I am not holding my breath. I would love a nap (perfect weather for it!!) but I doubt that is going to happen.
Well today Greg has been dead for 8 weeks and we have roughly 8 weeks until this baby arrives. Halfway between heaven and hell :( I spent the weekend in tears a lot of the time but not so much today. It is still hard but tomorrow I am doing a course just for me to help in the lead up to the birth of this baby and also to help manage the aftermath. I need to find that mental space to be able to do this so any additional skills will help.
Lisa - :hug: hope you got some rest
Jayne - get the new computer. Then set up a wireless network and you can chat to us in any room and even take it to bed ;) Fantastic job with the weight loss too!!!!
Bun - it must be so hard for your sister :( And being away from family is always rough.
Deb - thinking about you today :hug:
Big hellos to everyone xx
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Michelle, Im so glad we got to see you today. Your belly is beautiful. O and L are gorgeous as always - glad they had fun riding the slides (even if I need to get my fitness up to climb those bloody stairs :rofl: ) Glad you all liked the bears :hug:
And great to see you too Willow/L/Bubba D and Mako/S. We definately should not leave it so long next time!
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That's why you climbed the stairs hun :lol: I did one round and the BH were too much to go again. Poor Lily just wants to play with the big kids but mummy can't help ATM.
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Michelle It was great to see you and your adorable babies yesterday. You truly are doing an amazing job in very difficult circumstances :hug:
Anna and Willow it was great to see you both and your gorgeous boys too. We really do need to all catch up more often.
Sage fell asleep within 10 mins of us leaving and he didn't wake until I turned the car off in our driveway. I was so happy he slept all the way as the rain absolutely bucketed down the whole way and I'm not too sure I would have been able to concentrate on driving while entertaining a toddler :rolleyes:
Bun I'm so sorry to hear your sister is having a very rough time atm. I hope things improve for her in the not too distant future :hug:
Jayne Well done on your weight loss :clap:
Laney I hope everything is just perfect at your next scan. Please come in here and let us know how you are doing :hug: How is Grayson doing?
Deb I was thinking of you constantly yesterday. How did everything go?
I should get going. I have so much washing to get done and its all going to have to end up in the dryer yet again. Oh well thats what they were invented for wasn't it lol.
Sage had a bit of a shocker the 1st night of trying to get himself to sleep without me sitting in his doorway but last night he was much better. He didn't have anywhere near as many tears nor did it take him very long to fall asleep. Oh and last night he stripped his pj's and nappy off when I was in the shower and he put his seat on the toilet and hopped up and did a wee and a poo all by himself. This is a huge leap forward as he's been telling me for the last month that the toilet seat was too cold and he refused to do a wee except in his nappy or pullup. So today he's in undies again and he's done wee's on the loo. Hopefully this will continue too. Oh and the pullups have disappeared now too ;) Lets see how long this all lasts ;)
Hi to everyone :)
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It went okay. He showed himself in complete twathood... :cry:
We haven't reached agreement so the next step is a mediation with a Barrister. More money... :wall:
But I won't back down. The kids deserve me to fight for what we are due. It's stressful though & I have an horrendous sinus infection to boot. :hug:
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HI Ladies,
I'm awfully sorry for such a selfish post, I just got my computer fixed today, finally!! But I just posted in the platinum section, I dont' want to post anything about it in here, as this is more 'public'. Just not in a great frame of mind, am overcome with anxiety, have no idea what to do about anything.
Love Jayne
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I totally understand your need for privacy Jayne but wanted to give you a :hug: in here too. Please know that we are all here to support you :hug:
Deb well done to FWOTY for being a twat in court on Monday. I can only hope the Barrister sees through him too.
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Jayne :comfort: I've got access to plat for mod purposes but I don't post in there. I'll pm you soon.
Kxxx
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Hey Ladies,
BW _ How are things with you? Haven't heard from you in a while, wanted you to know that we are all thinking of you.
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Thank you for thinking of me, Jayne. Especially in the midst of everything you are dealing with (I read your thread but didn't have anything useful to add, but I am thinking of you!).
I'm at home today with a sick little boy who couldn't go to daycare and I have to pack for a weekend away - a womens retreat with church and I'm feeling kind of guilty about leaving Sam for the first time while he's sick, but he adores daddy so will probably not even notice I'm gone.
On the work front - I have resigned. As of the end of this term I will no longer be a teacher. At least not in that school anyway. I will be pursuing some stuff with the union - lodging a letter of complaint with the school and possibly pursuing a workers compemsation claim. The school has offered to pay me until the end of the term without even requiring me to show up, but I'm going to get medical certificates to cover my arse on that one! So I guess my return to life as a stay at home mother has begun. Really unsure as to how we'll cope financially and having major attacks of the guilts over this one move making it virtually impossible for Sam to have another sibling... when there are potential siblings sitting in a freezer at an IVF clinic it puts an interesting spin on things.
Anyway, my little munchkin has just absconded with my keys and he has a doctors appointment later today so I'd best go chase them.
Michelle, Deb, and everyone else - thinking of you also. :hug:
BW
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BW _ I am always thinking of the ladies in here, I know we are all having issues in some way or another but I just wanted you to know that you weren't far from my thoughts & I that I do really genuinely care & worry & want to know how you are. I'm sorry you have resigned & I'm sorry that Sam is sick, but I think this retreat away is going to be good for you. A time to let your hair down & relax a little & just get away from 'everything' that is going on. I wish I could join you!
