Lee - you are describing my reality perfectly. I slept badly. So did the babies. Oscar woke through the night calling out for daddy and sobbing. Lily woke this morning with her usual call for daddy too. It breaks my heart each and every time.

My sister is taking them out so I can try to get some decent sleep but the thoughts keep coming and so do the tears. I am broken. Living an existence I never imagined on Sunday. The pain hurts so much and I just want to be held in his arms again. I just want it to stop but I know it won't. This is my life now. The one without Greg. I have to keep going but everything just seems so very hard right now.

You will never truly comprehend how much your support means to me. Thank you.