Will it always be so hard?

[NaeNae]

BTW - I hope my PM to you the other day didn't upset you?

oh goodness no Mel i am just a bit emotional today, damn emotions

[~mamaspice~]

Oh Naenae, I don't have much advice to give but just wanted to give you a big
I like the idea of doing something special for Nikita. Perhaps you could have a beautiful angel ornament on the tree for her too?
She will certainly be with you in spirit, and just remember that Nikita is undoubtably little Shae's guardian angel, and Shae couldn't wish for a better guardian angel than her big sister.

[Lisa]

For me, it had got easier but Christmas time is always difficult. I do my own thing for Noah every year and I find an Angel of some type and buy it for him for Christmas. Sometimes I buy a few things. I also buy him an angel for his birthday too... it just feels right for me as I buy my earth babies presents for christmas and birthdays too.

When I had Harrison, DH & I would slip up all the time and call him Noah. It would break my heart... but soon enough we found it okay when we called him Noah and we'd have a little giggle because we know Harrison is just as beautiful as Noah, so it was just natural for us to call him by his big brothers name. FWIW, we still slip up now and call Anelise "Harrison" or "Noah". I don't know what gets me through... I think it is knowing that my babies are all special in their own way for lots of different reasons, and Noah is extra special because he is my big angel baby.

Your beautiful girl will always be a very important and special part of your life and of your family as I know you already know.
Please know you're always in my heart & thoughts, especially at this time of year. Hugs sweetie.