Should I mention too that I have absolutely no family around too? I have friends but its not the same. I'm flying solo on this gig and that makes it harder too.

There is no chance of DH coming home permenently. He's not qualified for anything but what he does away on the mines. He's been doing it since he was 19 and while his skills are transferable, the cut in pay wouldn't allow me to stay at home. It's just not an option.

I have option but to cope, DD has no option but to cope and we'll muddle our way through it as best we can. Thanks for listening.

And yes, DD is asleep behind the door. But she's asleep and I'm not moving her!