It is normal to be distressed after the passing of such a loved one. Perhaps you need to find someone that can take the kids for a week or two or you go on holidays for a week or two. That way you will get *some* time to grieve and have some time to deal with it. Especially if it is two weeks you can get away, you will likely find yourself ready to be surrounded by your family Even if finances really don't allow it, I would still suggest it as it is important and will help your family.