What they said, and then some. You are an INCREDIBLE Mum. A credit to your own Mum, I don't doubt. And you're allowed to let the wheels fall off a bit while you grieve.

You have created two resilient little girls who have had consistent warmth, devotion and responsiveness from you and they do not doubt your love. They know that you're sad and they know why. It's ok to be transparent with them. To let them know that you're feeling so sad that it's really hard to feel fun and energetic right now. That you miss it and that you know that they do too. But to reassure them that this is a normal process and that over time, it changes. Let them know how they can help, and how they can help themselves. Who they could talk to and what they could do if they were feeling sad too.
Where you can, make space for yourself to just sit in the hard stuff, and make space for them to go off and be silly with others who don't have to carry this burden right now. You don't have to be all the joy, all the time. Right now, you can't be.

Know that you are loved and that, as always, you have us behind you. xoxoxox