I feel terrible saying this, but I hate being a mum. I just want my old life back. I cant settle my baby, everyone else can. Im struggling to cope when he starts screaming cause I cant make him stop. I hate being stuck at home all the time but I hate going out with a screaming baby who wont settle for me. I hate having to count down the hours each day till dh gets home so that im no longer here alone. I hate that I never get a break.

I feel terrible for feeling like this & feel so guilty that although I love my ds I also resent him. Im so jealous of dh getting to go to work all day while im stuck at home by myself with a screaming baby.

Everyone keeps telling me that it gets better, but when? When will I enjoy it? When will I start to be glad that our ivf was successful & we had a child?

Everyone at mums group seems to have adapted so well. They dont seem worried that their babys wont sleep during the day, they still seem like everything is fabulous. It doesnt bother them when their baby starts screaming. They still go on with their lives, do what they want etc with a baby in tow. Why cant I be like that? When will I adapt?

Sorry I feel so bad posting this but I just wanted to get it out