You know, some people aren't baby people. My husband isn't, he hates the first months and it's not really until our kids are walking that he starts to enjoy it like other people think he should. He's just more of a toddler/older child person, our DD is perfect for him.

It's not something to be sorry for! It can be tough, so tough. When you're alone with someone tiny who depends so much on you and you feel like you can't fix their crying. In times like that I want you to know you are enough. You're doing your best for your baby and it is enough, you're doing a great job. If baby won't settle it's easy to feel like you're not doing things right, but you are doing well and your baby loves you.

As for when it ends, I'm not sure. You might feel better when your baby is a bit more independent. Finding a play group or mothers group to help you get out during the day might help. I'd say just hang in there, but if you need help or just someone to come and be with you, please reach out and ask.