I hear you sister ...... aside from a few hours here and there and nights during this pregnancy I have ALWAYS been with DD. I only handed the night shift over to DH because I needed a break to sleep but if I hear her crying through the night I still wake up and sometimes get up and check they are alright.

DD was breast fed up until 2-3 weeks ago and we went cold turkey because I just couldn't deal witht he tongue flink nipple thing she started aside from a few other things.

I have my FIRST "girls night out" with my bestie this saturday night and I am spending the night away from home. I will be out early on Sat morning come home for a little bit then out again until maybe lunchtime the next day.

Part of me is DREADING being so far away from DD (1hr) for such a long time but another part of me is saying " its going to be a few years before you get to do this again"

I have no tips on how to deal with it, But I can tell you I feel horrid about the decision but I am in such need for some "me only" time before the next baby comes and before I get too big to travel longer distances.

If I remember to pop back and let you know how it goes I will

Nae x