Smug: My DD sleeps 10+ hours every night.
She tells me when she wants to go to bed by giving me her bottle and saying "bot bot"
She talks very fluently and knows how to say "whats that?" "who's that?" "mumma what doing?" "pup dog" "call daddy"
She dances with me to my music and even sings along.
She has the most beautiful big blue eyes

Crap: DD won't eat real food and still wants up to 4 bottles a day
She still has an umbilical hernia and may require surgery
Because she does have much hair she is often mistaken for a boy
Often have to argue the fact I AM her mother!!
Couldn't give DD a sibling and she loves babies (beat myself up about that all the time )
My belly, sides, thighs and hips are covered in horrible stretch marks from pregnancy.
My belly skin sags and have to wear shapewear to hide it and be able to wear nice clothes
I suffer from anxiety and the smallest things set off an anxiety attack (we went into the city to have lunch for fathers day, DP picked a place that id never eaten at and the food was different from what id eaten and i didnt want to eat there, it should have been a simple no but i had a massive anxiety attack )