Misty ~ thats why i don't want/not expecting miracles. I will be happy for just a 3hr stretch. I think its starting to take a toll on her now too...she has bags under her eyes. I feel that she is suffering for not sleeping. its not just for my benefit, its for hers too.
stopping bf is my absolute last resort. and even then I dont think I will do it. Unless it destorys me I will keep going. I think I will feel worse if i stop. even though it is causing me pain now. i think the tiredness is adding to that. so wont make any decisions until after I know that isn't a factor.
I will take her to the doc on Monday, just to get checked over and see if there isn't something else there... the other day I smelt something, that infection smell you get. the smell of earrings (like dried whitecells). I couldn't work out where it was coming from, her or me, or was just old food on her top (lol dont i sound like a great mum =p), her necklace... I dont know but something smelt wrong. wouldn't hurt to get her checked anyway.

forshelby ~ thankyou, never thought to offer water instead of bm at night

MD ~ yea i will take her on Monday. no point with a "dream feed" because she wakes up then anyway. that is the wake up that i do feed her though, rather than try and resettle without feeding. interesting about what foods to offer. we just give her a little bit of everything, including butter etc.. basically whatever we have. and we only ever use fullcream stuff. atm, we sleep in the dark. we use to have a nightlight, but was only for my benefit while i was still working it all out, now i can attach her in the dark i dont use it. might be worth using a nightlight again. do you think she wakes up and freaks out because she can't see?

TFB ~ maybe i will settle her to sleep on me like that then try to t/f her to the bed?


well... last night, i did my normal bedtime routine. she fed, feel asleep and was settled in the cot, all within 10minutes!!!! =O normally takes over an hour!! I couldn't believe it. I didn't know what to do with myself. the feeling of peace and relief and relaxation i had though was amazing, i haven't felt like that for a very long time. (we hadnt changed anything yet). but overnight was the same. woke up every 2hours. only change, the 2 1/2hour screaming/unsettled/will only sleep when being rocked my me in the middle of the night. DH ended up on the couch so we could have the whole bed. not that we used it cause she wouldn't settle, tried painrelief, bf, rocking, patting, singing, nothing worked. then it was every 2 hrs again..