Christy - Yes, he does swallow a lot and gag when he's screaming his head off. I figured it was the silent reflux as well. He's on medication for it, but I'm wondering when they're supposed to up the dose?? He's at least a full kilo heavier than he was when it was first prescribed, so surely he needs a higher dose now? I might need to speak to my GP about that. I know I'm not missing the tired signs either. As soon as he yawns once, or rubs his eyes, I lie him down and try to rock him to sleep. Sometimes it works, other times it doesn't. But he ALWAYS wakes when I try to put him in his bed. Always. So I've resorted to holding him for his 2hr naps during the day. IF he'll even have one. Sadly, I think it's just the way he was made too. DP keeps suggesting a sleep school but I feel like I've tried all the routines already. What are they going to teach me except to let him CIO? I can't do that.... he gets too screamy to be left for more than a few minutes. He'll bloody choke himself to death.

DP says he understands, and he says I'm amazing for doing what I'm doing (sometimes, ha) but then his actions don't match that. He'll carry on like a single dude when the mood strikes him........ and he doesn't get that I can NEVER walk away from my responsibility, but it's ok for him to? It's tiring.

Just yesterday he dragged us all out of the house (ok I wanted to go) all day long to visit a friend. He knew I hadn't had breakfast yet, and when I complained I was hungry and that we needed to go as DS only had one nappy left in his bag, he seemed annoyed. I pointed out that it's not ok to drag me here and there, and not give me an opportunity to eat something! I spent hours holding DS while he fiddled around with a stereo system trying to get it working. It was no fun for me, stuck holding a crying baby all day while he enjoyed himself. It was 4pm when we got home and I still hadn't eaten. I finally got something at about 7pm. Just because HE can go all day without eating, he seems to forget that I'm already exhausted, and if I'm not getting energy from sleep, then I need food all the more for fuel. I made sure he's well and truly aware of the fact that I'm a person who needs to frigging eat. I'm not just a baby making, baby cuddling machine.

It's a bit ridiculous that I need to remind him I need to eat. Over it!