mo4, what you are feeling is very normal. I still have a hard time going into our belly buddies forum for the same reason. I really wanted to be an active member but it was just too hard for me.
If you need to take a trip to the hospital everyday to check on bub...then do it. I had some issues with long ctg's with Grayson and I always went back up the next day. I would have been a total mess if I didn't. They are there to help you through this.

Jo, tomorrow is the big day for us! We are a few hours behind you here in the US. I will be having my c-section about the time you are going to bed on the 10th. The news will most likely be posted on facebook first. If you PM me I can add you to my list.

I am really starting to freak out a bit about the c-section. Very nervous to say the least. It was not the greatest experience. I had a bad reaction to the spinal and was vomiting for 12 hours after Grayson was born Leaving Grayson for the first time is not going to be easy either. DH will be spending the nights at home with Grayson and my mom will help me out at the hospital. It is a strange feeling being at this point again. I am trying very hard to relax and only think of the positive. I think that I might actually be more nervous this time around!