Dory, wow, anniversaries are hard, sometimes harder when you have a baby in your arms as you know the true extent of what you lost. My heart is with you as you remember your gorgeous angel and know you will get through the day as strong as you can be.
Teni - That's really exciting about less induction talk. And I think we all sympathise with why you were saying you wanted your bub out. I felt the same way with my DS. I just wanted him safely in my arms and when I got to 37 weeks I was like "just get him out" but he stayed another two weeks and surprised me at 39 weeks. Try and keep your mind busy, do some relaxation etc and it won't be long before you have your precious bundle.
Laney - glad to hear Grayson is going well! And that the clots seem to be clearing up :-)
As for me, just taking one day at a time. Bub is moving a lot now which is so reassuring and as I'm still not showing at all, it's nice to know there is something in there and that feeling exhausted, emotional and sick is all for a reason :-) I have my 19 week scan coming up in three weeks and feel so nervous about it. It was at that scan we were told we were having a son, and then that he was very ill and I still remember wanting to vomit on the ultrasound bed. I knew this stage would be hard but I'm finding it harder this time around. I guess as I said before, now that I have DS I truly know what I lost first time around. Also had a scare over the weekend with a terrible low pressure pain "down there", It felt like bub's head was literally hanging in the birth canal. I rang the hospital who said that unless there was cramps and bleeding, that hopefully all would be fine. So I turned online and started freaking out that I was having symptoms of incompetent cervix. Didn't sleep a wink that night! Oh the joys...
Emotionally, doing better. I still have my days but the happy/less stressed ones are outweighing the worried/nervous ones. Big hugs to all :-)
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