Cindee - awesome news. If you don't mind me asking - what is your BP? I was really worried mine would be high especially with the restrictions on my activity levels, but it's been really really good. 125/75 which is higher than it was.... but not too bad for pregnancy. For a while there a few years ago it was 140/90. Yikes.
KAM - oh sweetie - don't guilt yourself out. I decided that after this year, I wasn't going to focus on EDD's as I have a few to keep track of. As well as the actual angel-versary and EDD's then I would be spending 7 months out of every 12 being potentially plunged back into active grief. So next year I've decided it's only the angel-versaries I will direct my energies into. I will see how I go. I don't this you disrespect your angels by not focusing on each and every significant date .... so please don't be too hard on yourself for being human. But in a way I do know how you feel. I completely missed a special anniversary of a date of death this year for someone very close to me and it did play on my mind for a while.
Butterfly - the less stress you can have the better! Good to see that the Obs was willing to accommodate you - I think that says loads. I was talking to a friend today and she had her antenatal appointments at the hossy, with similar experiences to what you describe as well as it coininciding with the show and there being no parking available whatsoever. She said it really used to make her more anxious than she preferred. I think it's awesome that you felt you wanted to get the bassinette and even better that you gave yourself permission to do it. Well done. I have been getting little things for bubs during this pregnancy, but yesterday DH and I collected the cot we'd bought 3 weeks ago and it had come in. Of course when we did I had a little cry, but at the same time I was really excited. And today, we with the help of the fur babies put up the bassinette. Although then half disassembled it so I could wash the parts that are washable. LOL. But these are huge steps for me. I wish I'd given myself permission to do some of the bigger stuff earlier, but to be honest, it didn't feel right any earlier.
It must be hard for you when those you are working so closely with experience the death of their baby... I don't know how you do it.... manage to help them whilst being back admist your own pain.
A winkle huh?
Laney - blah to m/s.... hope you are surviving. Must be hard with Grayson around needing attention. Not many sleeps til your next scan.... be sure to jump on quick and let us know..
AFM - the fur babies are reunited. One had some trouble adjusting - hissing, growling, chuffing and getting so anxious he made himself vomit ( lots of times), poor little mite. But with some patience and diligence the stress levels have settled and they all seem to be settling in. Not yet back to their old routines yet, but I think they are doing quite well. And the cat who has been away is very snuggly, but for now, that suits us both.
I must have been obviously affected the other day as I called my mum and she kept telling me I sounded upset and not my usual self. But, I came through and the darkness wasn't anywhere near as dark as I remember it.
AngelLuke'sMum - flagyl's an antibiotic right? Can you talk to your Dr about having a different one given the effect flagyl has had on you in the past? God news you've got a date for your stitch. I imagine that will give you a lot more peace of mind. 7 Sept is not that far away!
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