Bec, thanks hun. We actually had Joshua's 1st angelanniversary on 1st October, that was a bittersweet day remembering the day he was born. Fortunatelly we ended up going out to a really nice dinner and had a lovely relaxing night out. I wan't going to go to work, but I'm glad that I did as it took my mind off the day. We realeased a balloon each with our own message for Joshua and after dinner we lit a little candle on a cake and wished Josh a happy birthday. It's coming up to the 20 week mark soon, but I'm not too bad ATM, see how I am closer to the date! Thanks for thinking of me hun xxx