What you are feeling is so normal My angels were not as late as Ianto (4wks, 8wks and 17wks) but I understand the feelings you have described. I hate my body, it has failed me and it has failed all of my children.
I am so sorry for what you have been through, I wish there was a way to take away all the pain.
Wishing you all the best for the next 13ish weeks, you CAN do this, I have faith in you.
Oh hun, this bought tears to my eyes, I can't imagine what you're going through but just wanted to send you bug hugs! Can't wait to see your BA! Thinking of you xox
Oh Teni i think no matter our past experiences we all get to a stage in pregnancy where we stress ourselves to the max, i think the best thing you can do is talk to scott, mention your worries to your support team and get it out in the open.
Don't hold it in, cry for days if you need to we are here and we will listen to anything you have to say, even if it is 100 pages long and we can't figure out a word.
Your an amazingly strong woman, you are and will continue to be an amazing mum both now and after cookie is here.
Today's been a little better, though I've still worried here and there. Not many strong hard kicks, but lots of tumbles and slow pushes outwards. Got a lovely sharp punch/kick right to the cervix before (or around there anyway) - it hurt like hell!
I sit here in tears reading your post, I could never imagine how you are feeling You + your body has/are/will continue to do such a great job Little Cookie is growing beautifully, and it's perfectly normal for you to be worried.
Just remember you have a gorgeous little boy Ianto looking after you and cookie xoxox He would be sooo proud of his mummy!
I think you've done amazingly well to get to 27 weeks without a major freakout. Part of it may now be Cookie's changed position or taking up more room. A lot will probably have to do with the fact you're in the home stretch now. You're not far from when Ianto died and that will be a major milestone to get through.
Just take each day as it comes. Use a kick counter. Meditate on Cookie and send her/him lots of love. If it makes you feel better to pack a bag, do so, but include the baby clothes and blankets for the live baby you'll be bringing home. You know you can get a scan anytime to reassure yourself.
You're doing really well growing your baby. This is a different pregnancy and a different baby. Play your affirmations track over and over. It will help, even for just a little while. I don't know how far into the hypnobabies course you are, but it may help to start doing the fear clearing session - just don't do it while you're on your own.
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