Thank you all so much for you kind words and support. I really do appreciate it.

At this stage I am just waiting for things to happen. I've chosen to try for a Medical Management but it doesn't look like its going to happen in a rush.

My body, and probably me emotionally doesnt seem to want to let go just yet. I have started to pass a few clots but only when I visit the toilet and wipe.

I'm still in quite a bit of shock. I can't understand how my body can hold a baby who died 5 weeks ago. Seems such a long time to be going on without even knowing what had truely happened. I think thats what hurts the most. At the same time I feel silly for mourning a baby that was so small. I also feel so silly for making all these plans and telling everyone. So much of me was invested in this only to have it taken away silently.