Bleeding Again...

[~mamaspice~]

So sorry Sara

[Inanna]

I am so very sorry Sara to hear that your baby has flown away. I hope you have strong and supportive arms to hold you as you grieve your baby. Sending you my loving support.

Fly freely Little Bean

[~Kim~]

My sweet girl I am so sorry.

[Ilithyia]

Thank you all so much for you kind words and support. I really do appreciate it.

At this stage I am just waiting for things to happen. I've chosen to try for a Medical Management but it doesn't look like its going to happen in a rush.

My body, and probably me emotionally doesnt seem to want to let go just yet. I have started to pass a few clots but only when I visit the toilet and wipe.

I'm still in quite a bit of shock. I can't understand how my body can hold a baby who died 5 weeks ago. Seems such a long time to be going on without even knowing what had truely happened. I think thats what hurts the most. At the same time I feel silly for mourning a baby that was so small. I also feel so silly for making all these plans and telling everyone. So much of me was invested in this only to have it taken away silently.

[Ella]

Sara its not silly to mourn a baby so small. We told people as soon as we found out at 4 weeks. Your heart can't help but plan and dream when you realise you have a little bean in there. I think still being in shock sounds totally rational also, its such a big thing to process, that I'm sure there is part of you trying to hide away from it all. I hope things start happening soon for you so that you can start to process what is happening physically and emotionally. Thinking of you alot. You really are a special person from what I have learnt so far and I pray there are a thousand little angels holding you tight through this really unfathomable journey.

[Alan]

Sara

Your baby may well have been small but it was still your baby. Do not feel silly, you have every right to mourn this loss.

[Cassius2]

big big

fly free little bubba

[Inanna]

How are you going sweetheart? I want you to hear darling that missed miscarriage is not uncommon - what is common with this sad loss is that it is very confusing as a Mother that we didn't know instinctively that our baby was gone, or there was no sign. Maybe in time you will reflect and think aah maybe that's why that happened etc etc.

For now though just try to let go. This baby has flown away & now it's time for your body to give him/her up. It's hard & it's one of the most painful things you will ever do. But you will do this and you can. If I can help in any way please reach out. Know my thoughts and prayers are with you, your baby and your partner as you say goodbye.

[Olive]

so sorry hun

[Kazbah]

So sorry to hear of your Bean's passing Sara Take the time to grieve, it is something I cannot fathom either.

[Ilithyia]

Thank you all for kind words of support and encouagement. I really do appreciate it.

I have just returned home from hospital. I ended up going to The Mater who were great, and had a Medical Management. The experience was made a whole lot easier through the support of what I wanted.

It took some time but it seems I may have passed my baby in the early hours of this morning.

Now I just need to work on getting over the fact that I am no longer pregnant.

Thanks again for all your support....much love to you all!
xx

[Tegam]

Thanks for your comments.

I've just returned from hospital where it was confirmed that my baby passed at 8 weeks.

I chose to come home and await events.

My heart is broken....

Thanks again for your advice, support and comments...

Im sure it is. Such sad news! I hope that the wait is not too long!

[ebsta]

dont want to scare you hunni but i woke up bleeding two months ago with first preg went straiight to GP an he sent me hospital an i ended up losing it around 5 weeks an wished i had went earlier as they found out i was o neg blood type an my body thought it was an infection an i lost bubba when all i needed was to get there ealier an get an anti D shot so id suggest go straight to hospital an have it checked even tho it may be nothing to worry about but with all that said the best thing to do is not stress hard i know good luck with it all keep us posted xx

[Ilithyia]

Hi all!

Just thought I would update...

I've just got hom from hospital again. I went in on Monday to have bloods done and have a repeat u/s. U/s showed that baby and sac were still there so I was booked in for a d&c yesterday afternoon. It all went well apparently.

So now I feel like I can let go. I feel like my baby has finally flown away. I didn't feel like this when I came home last time.

I've still be thinking about whether to try again but I think I leaning towards waiting now. I am looking into getting the Mirena put back in but I really don't want too tbh. But I know if I don't have anything in place I will be too tempted to try again. So right now I am just trying to work out what I really want to do.

I'd like to thank you all for all the love and suppor that you guys have given me over the last week. Without your support and "shoulder" I think I might have gone crazy!

Thank you!

So where to now.....

[delara]

I kind of know what you mean, now you can focus on the future.
Take your time and go easy on yourself and in time you'll know whats right and what you want. You dont have to decide now. Maybe go and treat yourself with something special?
Best wishes to you and your family,xx