I think that if the cicumstances surrounding this pregnancy were different then I might actually see the positives more.
My now XDP tried to force me into an abortion, I have had friends that have told me that it would probably be for the best if I did as well. I worry about having somewhere decent to sleep without over stepping me welcome too much. I worry about having a stable place to live once bubby comes and being able to afford to live with both of my babies. I do not have support from family in WA and cannot afford to move to Sydney and as far as I know, rent is even higher over there and I am having no luck affording anything here as it is. Now I have lost my job (because I didn't give my boss enough notice when I ended up in the ED -.-) I don't even know how I am going to afford to keep my car or phone. I have all the furniture I need other than matteresses. I only need to get the little things like new cloth nappies etc for the baby but all of that is usless without having a place to put it all. I have been on the priority listing for Homeswest (the housing commision for WA) but it will still be another 18 months before I get even a two bedroom place. I can't got raising a 3ry old and a newborn in a car for a year. I just don't know how I am going to manage...