Hey glenny.
As everyone knows DD had a birth defect, the chances were one in several thousand to get it in the first place, and if you have one child with it the chances are 1:5 to have your next child with gastroschisis.

That was terrifying. There were moments while we were TTC that I thought we should stop, but I wanted to have a baby so I could have all that I missed out on with DD. Natural birth, full term pregnancy, breastfeeding, not sitting in hospital for months.

I prepared myself for the worst, convinced DS had gastroschisis. And at my morph scan we got to see very very clearly that he didn't have the defect.
Things didn't get better from there, I was so scared he would die and have some other problem they hadn't picked up.

But, all is well. But, I cannot go through another pregnancy. It's just too frightening. I've had the big snip since DS was born, so that fear is now gone and all the nightmares have stopped.

I don't know if the fear goes away.

Big hugs.