dont be so hard on yourself, im not a smoker myself, but its not easy to give up i know, i have watched a lot of people try, some stick to it, other just cant do it!

i think its great that you've made the move to at least try!! that deserves praise!

your not a lousy mother! i read a thread a little while ago about smoking in pregnancy, and while im not 100% sure of the dangers to the baby, my mum smoked while pregnant with me & while breastfeeding... and i turned out just fine!

i wish you lots of luck in quitting! dont beat yourself up about it, you'll get there eventually!!