Thats great you have come to a decision on which way to go with testing and also going private.. just one less thing to worry about. I also have had CS x3 but decided I would take the chance with giving birth if it came to it, also was prepared to have another Cs if needed, apparently it is'nt like a full CS , but I guess it would still hurt afterwards, just the cut is much, much smaller just a tiny pocket.
I could't stand the thought of the baby being dismembered, I wanted to hold her and have photos and footprints afterwards.. But I certainly respect peoples individual choices, these are the some of the hardest decisions that anyone will have to make in their lifetime.
Thankfully it did'nt come to it for me.
One last note i believe that they can give you a drug so that the baby is stillborn, so it does'nt suffer at birth.