Hi ladies

I am 8 weeks along with my first bub.

Since there's no names here I can say I was sexually abused as a child and for this reason I have psychological reasons why I do not want to breast feed. The entire process completely grosses me out, not because of my baby but because of what happened to me. But I dont want to feed my baby formula either.

So after the big event and it's time for baby's first meal, do hospitals/ birth centres etc allow you to express from word go? I dont want anyone poking around with my body as it is and if some nurse/midwife did what I have read and grabbed at my chest I would literally be like a rabbied dog and turn to bite

Does anyone have any advice on if hospitals etc are supportive of wanting to feed baby naturally but only through a pump and bottle from WORD GO?

odd question I guess, but thanks anyway for reading