Bangs, sending you many hugs... came from a similar situation myself, and have just come out of the horrific SCN environment, and in the end couldn't cope with the pump and have my baby on formula full time. It's going to be stressful, but as you are going into it more prepared than I was, I think you will likely be more successful. However, I do warn that those first few days,if you need a midwife to help you hand express will be horrific. I remember one who must have just come back from a cigarette break... ugh! Please don't beat up on yourself if you do end up having to go with formula, and please try to talk to your partner about things before hand. Just a few things I've learned from recent experience.

BW