Well I wish I had better news although it is not all bad.
We have a little baby, measuring to dates with a heartbeat of 153.
However the fold on babies neck is big, very big. It looks from memory bigger than what Matildas was .
They want me to go back at 2.30 today to see the specialist. He will have a good look and hopefully be able to give us a little more insight. They have recommended a CVS or Amnio, they may offer it this afternoon.
We said after Matilda that we would not bother to do the further testing again as it would not change our minds, we would go through with the pregnancy anyway however now I am considering having the test, I think I would like to know if it is the same chromosome deletion that Matilda has (they said it was a fluke that shouldn't happen again) or if it is down syndrome or something else, just to be prepared and to know what to look for in future ultrasounds.
We will not know more about the cleft and small jaw until the 18-20 weeks scan, these are the reasons Matilda has had so much trouble and why she was in hospital so long so there is still a chance that this will not occur again.
I am worried about wether I am going to able to have a VBAC or if baby is going to be taken to NICU straight away again or if I will be able to breastfeed, these are proberly selfish things on my behalf but things I need to heal.
I am torn at the moment, honestly I cannot believe that this is all happening again .
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