Hmmmmm am I really the only one struggling with my body????

[LaDeeDa]

Ok - so i just want to preface this thread with

1) I absolutely love my unborn little man and
2) I love my baby bump and watching it grow and feeling him move, knowing that my body is creating and nurturing him.

BUT

I absolutely hate everything else about my pg body. I have friends who tell me that they were made to be pg and they love it more than not being pg and they wish they could just be about 7 months pg all the time (seriously someone said that to me at DF's christmas party last week )

I am so thrilled for you - honestly I mean that!
But I am not a part of that club - I tolerate being pregnant and I know that is a highly taboo thing to say in baby circles but I'm gonna put it out there.

Last night I was at my antenatal class and the teacher asked everyone if they were happy with their bodies while they are pg....

Everyone was silent and just nodded. So to my way of thinking they probably aren't but they aren't game to say anything in front of the forum for fear of being judged.

PHOOOEYYY!!!!

I think my bump is gorgeous and sexy - sure I haven't seen my vagina in about 4 months and having sex makes me think I should join cirque de soleil as a contortionist but I love this big glowing beacon of my femininity sticking out the front of me.

But I HATE the fact that I am soooooooo full of fluid that I really don't have any ankles at all and my knees are so swollen that I can barely fit them in my jeans.

I HATE that I lost so much weight before I fell pg and was finally into size 12 pants and feeling really good and now I am in size 16-18 pants (I am convinced they make maternity wear sizes really small or is that just me??? )and I feel horrible and embarrased and just don't want to go out anymore.

I HATE that DF is in the best shape of his life and says that yes I am really big now but I'm pg and we'll fix it when little man arrives - stop being so positive el buffo!!!!

I HATE that my arms make the tuckshop lady look toned tight and terrific.

I HATE that I have an obsession with ice cream and cravings that even the blasted Dalai Lama couldn't use self control to ride out - and I hate even more that it's for McDonalds soft serve and you have to deal with the stares of people when ordering it that are clearly saying
"You shouldn't be eating that for a whole heap of reasons lard arse oh and by the way didn't you read the chapter on listeria...."

I HATE the cellulite that is now on places that I didn't think cellulite actually went ....

But most of all I hate the feeling of helplessness that comes with it.....

When you are just large or overweight you can make the choice to exercise and change it but when you are in the last stages of pg just walking around the supermarket is a huge effort and you have to wait to not be pg to be able to make the changes you need to.

I don't know about any of you ladies but the idea of going for a power walk or a run just makes me want to crawl under a rock and die ....LOL

Phew!!! Now I guess I am wondering if I am the only person who feels even a little bit like this and if so how are you dealing with these feelings?

Hmmmm... ok now I am off to pack the car to go up the farm and spend 4 days with my 5'10 size 8 SIL .....