7 pregnancies and 6 live children. I have lost 1 each of 2 sets of twins and had a termination. I felt so sick and I was in so much pain they thought I had an ectopic and I was told I was bleeding down my fallopian tubes before I had the termination, also I had not been in a relationship long (sneaky bubs got through the condom) and we were not prepared for it. Straight after I had the procedure I felt fine, so to me, my body was telling me there was something wrong with my baby. My now exh and I went on to have 2 beautiful boys. I do still think about the baby that could have been, but know it was the best decision at the time. Doesn't stop the guilt though