Again I can't offer reassurance but perhaps a shoulder to lean on I posted the other day because I'm having the same sorts of fears. After my sons death having boys terrifies me. I'm sorry you are feeling this way and I wish (gee do I wish!!) I knew some way to make it stop.
Big hugs and I'm sure everything will be fine and it's just weird hormonal mind games that result in a completely different ending


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