Rae im sorry you are feeling like this and i can say that im sure i will be the same.

My story is a little different .............................
I have had a lot of emotions about becoming pg. when i has my ectopic in 2002 i didnt even hear what the doc had to say i blanked out as i have this huge fear that i am going to die when im in labour.i mean i didnt even know i was pg so that was enough for me i didnt hear that it was ectopic untill after the surgery!!

im seeing a counceller to help me get though all these emotions

What im saying is i think your emotions are normal and i hope that someone in this site can be a bit more helpful than me. I just wanted you to know that im thinking of you and that i hope you are feeling better soon.x