The first week or so I'll be at my parents house, it's just the imagery in my mind of the trip driving home and then Dad2be going to work on the Monday and then the house is quiet and empty and then SCREAMING BABY, what do I do, how do I figure out what he wants, what if he just won't stop crying etc if my mum or grandparents or friends are all busy and can't help me and Dad2be has left his mobile in the car. He promises he'll have his mobile on him 24/7 and will answer no matter what he's doing but I don't want to get him in trouble at work or anything.

Yes my mum said if I wasn't in a panic and was being all ****y know-it-all about it then she'd be worried and would also laugh when I did get bubs home. She was terrified of me but she was with my nanna then nan had me for the first 11 years of my life and nan knew what to do she was from a big family and mum is one of 3.

If I get a job will be part time only so we can afford to do nice things or have a nice meal out a fortnight and save for car rego's and such a bit easier so we can afford any sudden vet bills or a sudden high electricity or telephone bill etc so we can afford to save up for a new kitchen etc.

I love little bubs in the making already, seeing his little face and eyes at the ultrasound and can feel him move around all the time I can't wait to have him to cuddle and love just thinking about all the above is very scary..