hun - i think some of the difference between a long termer getting their BFP and a "natural" pg is that, with a long termer, you know the emotion, you know what they've been through, you know that this baby is much longed for

with a natural pg - it's harder to understand their emotions, and sometimes, it harder to see the joy they're feeling because you haven't been a part of that journey...

i completely get where you're coming from - i still groan at hearing about some people falling pg - and it drives me insane - i have no reason to not be happy for them, but i just can't feel that level of joy for them - i just kinda think "yeah, good" and have to move on...

wish i could give you some deep insight and make it seem ok, but i think we're always going to carry a degree of pain from this journey, and it's going to mess with us big time

thinking of you hun

BG