As much as you probably don't want to hear me say it, I don't know if the feeling ever goes away either

I could've completely written Michelle's post word for word - I'm still jealous of the women that just get to 'choose' when is best for them. I have absolutely no issues or feelings of jealousy with anyone that has had to fight to make it happen...

I think, with every lesson we learn in life, there has to be something about that lesson that makes its mark on us permanently - sometimes its a good mark, and other times its a not so good mark.
I think feelings like this for us LTTTCers is just another horrid addition to the journey

I'm hoping that when I've finished having children that my feelings go away, but I think deep down I know they won't...

It will still hurt that the other 'normal' () people around me got the unexpected surprise, the adrenalin rush of OMG I'm pregnant without thousands of $$, thousands of emotions, thousands of appointments, and thousands of drugs leading up to it happening.... and the fact that they 'choose' when is right for them for subsequent pregnancies... and then it happens, hurts like hell....

I think we can all learn something & take comfort in the fact that we can ADMIT the jealousy or envy or whatever other feeling we are feeling... I would imagine that we would all be in a much less healthy headspace if we were trying to make ourselves (and others around us) believe that we were really fine with it IYKWIM???

Lots and lots of hugs hun, and know you're not alone... and what you're feeling is completely normal

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