Thx ladies.

I put my request in to join the gender disappointment group. I think that will be helpful, especially if this one is a boy and we are not able to have another.

Mel - yeah, I know I will love it regardless, but I suppose it is dealing with the added disappointment that infertility brings - even if you end up prg, you can't have children when you want to have them, you can't have as many as you want to have, you don't really feel like you can relax and enjoy pregnancy as easily because you are so afraid of loss etc. etc. It just feels like sadness after sadness, and a lot of re-adjusting to a different family than the one we hoped we would have - if that makes sense.

Thanks again.