Huge hugs. I know how you feel, I felt the same way. Being pregnant was something I longed for so desperately, having a baby, making our family, the whole situation was perfect but I always felt like it was a dream, I was waiting to wake up. I wasn't LT TTC, although we had to wait a while. We weren't able to TTC, but we waited all the same, and when the day came I was excited and so apprehensive. Every scan, every appointment, every time they checked the heartbeat I held my breath, fully expecting to hear those words. When we set up the cot, I cried because I thought I could never have the dream of bringing home a baby, I was totally sure I would never bring her home... it was awful really.

Huge hugs I wish I could help and give advice, but I can't. I do urge you to talk about it though, talk about it with people who have experienced this and understand it, because my experience is that I didn't. I kept it inside. And I felt a real distance between me and Jazz when she was born. I think that is normal for some people, but I think there was a link because I never really saw myself as having a baby. I never thought I'd have a baby. Even afterwards, I saw a baby, but I never saw my baby until she was about 4-6 weeks old.

But of course you do. Your baby is going to be brought into such a wonderful, loving, excited family. You'll be awesome!