Bit of a sad day today. After another night of wind and upset little man I decided enough was enough and onto formula.

I saw the pead yesterday who said linc is most prob lactose intolerant so he may be unsettled on my milk for 3+ months

So when he decided he only likes one boob and not the other and was starving but wouldn't take the other one I went to the chemist and baught soy formula.

But he is so much more settled, he slept in his bed! (first time in a fortnight) for an hour and in his sling for 90mins. He looks so much happier and isn't waking up screaming.

I do feed guilty for giving up but it's not working for me and I don't think it's working for him either.

I was so sad this morning I cried over the top of linc while he was screaming with hunger but wouldn't take the other boob. MIL came in took bubs and gave me a huge hug. I rang DH and blurted out all my feelings and he was so sweet, telling me how fantastic a job I am doing etc. I still really wish he was here.

I still feel sad but linc is so much happier already and I can eat food again which I'm sure I"ll grow to love more daily