Hello again,
Jenc - take care of yourself and rest up. I hope you are able to bake for as long as you need, although it must make it easier to know that even at this stage your little ones would have a very good fighting chance. Wow, what an experience for you. I hope it wasn't too scary and you are home again on Friday

Kaydee, Grub, Neptune and Greenslw, thank you so much for all your advice. I read with a lump in my throat so just skimmed it over enough to know that you were saying the things I needed to hear. All of your experiences and your little tips were spot on. I don't have very major needs for a social network like alot of people but I do suffer without the right balance and I guess my balance is feeling a bit off. Neptune, I know what you mean about the anxiety condition. Mine (which is always just part of me) came back when we were moving to the Daintree. I remember having the most stressful time in the removal truck on the drive up and I had to just close my eyes and meditate the whole time DH was driving. It was just a temporary out of control feeling I suppose.

I know what you mean Grub about being your best mate with your DH. Luckily that's how it's always been for us but he can never fill the void of not having family. Before this move, in my whole life I've never lived in a different town from my sister and my Mum. Even when DH and I first started living together, I didnt move out, he moved in with Mum and I! They get on great. I can go a long time without friends around but it seems hardest to be without family. It doesn't help that my Mum lost her partner and I am sooo far away this year while she is in Melbourne.

After fessing up to DH today and him getting a bit concerned that it might be time to leave the tree change and head back to townsville, I assured him that's not what I want. It's not. You're right Greenslw and I totally love it here. I just have to do a few more things to beat the feeling of being so removed from family. It's been over two years now and I really don't want to go back. They all miss me too but have so many other distractions in their lives where I've maybe slowed down the pace a bit too much. I've decided to get a t.v for a few laughs and a bit of company (so I can give poor old Belly Belly a break and tune in to a bit of Adam Hills. ahhh, I just have to make sure I don't become a Dr Phil junkie again

Well thanks again for the big pep talk, it's good to have little blow outs to remind you to take notice of your feelings and not let them get out of hand.

xox