heya wantbaby#2
I know its a hard time to get through... You always think getting pregnant is the hard part but when you do fineally get tehre the worries just get worse :hugs:

swimming is a great idea.. I did it alot during those first testing weeks, and when you get out you feel so fit and ready to take on the world that you find yourself feeling positive about the baby for a change!

I think the main thing here is, you've had a mc before.. So in a way I suppose your mind is makeing you think the worst not only because your frightened at how long its taken you to get this far, and loseing everything youve been hopeing for, but also because youve been through it before, you half expect it to happen just as unexpectedly and inexplicably as before, because you never really got any answers and its easy to think, well its happened once for no reason, so it will happen again. It could be your subconcious trying to deal with the expectation as well..

I went through all the emotions your describing.. Another thing (other then not feeling pregnant enough) I felt was that I wouldnt bond with this baby out of pure defense for dealing with loseing it.. You have to remember not everyone gets Horrifically sick or absolutely tender sore boobs etc etc.. With my first succesfull preg I didnt even notcice I was pregnant until I was four months along! I had no symptoms, no ms, nothing.. If id not noticed much longer it would have been a kick that told me!

Everytime you have bad thoughts about the baby, try to think about the reasonable arguments why nothing is wrong.. like..

-=- Im not bleeding heavy and im not in a whole heap of pain
-=- Its normal not to feel pregnant in the first few weeks
-=- Its my turn this time around, and the worst isnt going to happen this time.
-=- Im only *insert amount of weeks here * away form the "safe zone"
-=- theres no reason that this baby simply CANT be perfectly healthy

I found counting down each week to week 12 really helped.. the closer you get, each week, have a little self celebration at your babys achievments at getting through the next week even if its just mentioning it to your dh, hearing yourself say out loud to him *only ** weeks to go b4 we're safe! really can help (at least it did with me) And try to remind yourself each week that nothing so far has gone wrong, enjoy every minute you are having with the baby

Im sure everything is ok hun! I think distracting yourself is also a great idea, surround yourself with friends, have a bbq or go out to dinner or the movies even.. things like that

Hope this helped.. We will all be here too if you need to vent

AFM packing wildly atm haha.. but the comp isnt shoved in a box yet so I decided to say hello to my loverlys b4 it does happen

HI!
lol talk soon <3 Ky