|Oh no i just lost my post...will try agian. Boy i hate that.
TL- hope you have a better day tomorrow hun. I love a good bean bag too hun...took ages for us to get rid of the horrid smell from the beans at first but now it is beuwdiful.
LNB...hun it is overwhelming but do the best you can...don't worry about personals. We are just al here for each other. You are a star. Welcome to you too hun and heres to a great pregnancy together! Swimming...great idea. i might try and find a pool too. I was only thinking that the other day...hmmm to find a pool that is not too heated and indoors...good luck
Bel, Congratulations...wowsa twins. There are a few around ATM with twin bubbas. It is just wonderful. Love the nanna naps...get as many as you can i say.
Shannon, Ohhhh so close. A new car, nice one. Hope you are feeling like all the ducks are in a row now hun. Nice to meet you by the way...lol. I have read some of your blog posts 'cause i had/having a bit of a hard time with the guilt side of things and having a successful outcome after trying for so long and being on the other side of the fence so to speak. Your experiences helped me a lot so far. Thanks and sending you calm birthing thoughts..
BW, congratulations hun. Glad your embies are safe and sound. What a thought to have in the middle of the night! Hugs.
BG, thanks for remembering me ...long time ago. I think the last time i was around your way...before i left for journal land only was when you were painting and renovating. Boy so long ago and so much has changed since then...thank goodness hey?
AFM...what does that mean...??? i will have to go and look it up. I think it is an update of some kind by the looks.... Well my update is- Had my very first reality moment last night...a bit freaked out. I suddenly was aware i wanted a baby but not a child to follow IYKWIM. I was not ready for a 5yr old...school, lunch boxes...etc etc I was petrified. I know it is irrational, but i just wanted a baby! I surrendered to the moment and hoped to god it would feel real soon and trusted that i will bond and fall inlove to eventually want it all. Please don't judge me but i have been through every emotion possible for such a long time. I have always always wanted children and in the last year we have started to deal with being childless. We were starting to see and feel the other side to not having children...so now even though this is a much wanted thing, it is a bit of an adjustment. I suddenly felt like...nothing will be the same....i don't want to lose myself to this, my body will change, i am going to be needed every minute of everyday....and i broke into tears.
Nutter i know when it is all i ever wanted for so long. So i went to bed at 7pm mind you thinking....please let me fall in love so that i can want it all. I think also a part of me is still being very cautious and protective...a sort of shock still that needs confirmation again and again.
But you know what I feel great and weirdly that surprises me. I thought i woul dbe proper freaked out but i am calm and positive....apart from last nights outburst....all is great.
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