Evening all,

Another selfish post...sorry but so much going on in my head at the moment.

After my big bleed on Sat night, I have been so afraid of losing these 2 little babies. I have left my bed really just to shower and go to the toilet. Am trying to do all I can to help these little blessings stay nice and comfy.

We went back to see our FS today and had another scan. Thank God both babies were nice and comfy and their heartbeats nice and fast and strong. Still have a really small pocket of blood there, but outside of the sacs. Yesterday I was still losing old blood as FS said I would, but today really nothing...just a slight dark tinge on the toilet paper.

FS thinks that things will be ok now...

So I am now officially a house bum at 8 weeks, 5 days pregnant! No amount of money is worth risking these 2 little lives. I'm pretty much on bed rest until I make it through 12 weeks, then probably light duties for the remainder of the pregnancy. I will do WHATEVER it takes to protect my babies.

I just truly wish that DH and I didn't have to go through this. We have already lost so much of our innocence with IVF, TTC and our previous 2 losses. I know thought that I am blessed to have the twins chose us to be their parents.

On the positive though..MS is here. Am feeling nauseous all day and night. AND the BB's are still ridiculously sore. WHATEVER is thrown at me...I can handle, as long as our babies are ok.

Thanks to everyone of you for your kind words and for having me in your heart. TL, I have been thinking of you through every step of this scary last few days. I keep telling myself that if you and little Charlotte can get through a scare like this, then so can my 2 babies and I.

Hugs all and thanks once again. Will try to catch up tomorrow.

Bel