Hi Everyone.

Scooby - don't worry mate - I'm stressing about everything at the moment. Tear in my bot-bot is just one more thing to add to the list.

I'm having regular freak outs about giving birth to the point of almost throwing up (nope - never had any ms) in the book shop and walking out in tears (behind dark glasses of course).

I'm feeling very over-whelmed at the moment with work, house renovations, trying to get a new car that has more than 2 doors and Christmas. My DH keeps asking my opinion about things - ie: what colour I want the wooden floor stained and when I give an answer he tells me that the guy who polishes floors thinks it will be a bad choice. I just can't deal with it.

All these things I used to have very strong opinions about and I would be quite prepared to get into an agressive debate to resolve I just can't be bothered.

What type of car do we get? 2nd hand, New, Subaru, Mazda, leather, not leather, turbo, v6. I just don't care any more.

I find it really difficult to make decisions where I used to be very adamant and decided on things almost immediately.

What I'm really worried about is that I'll be really ****ed when the pregnancy is over and I have a turbo subaru without leather interior and floors the colour of poo.

I just feel like running away - that and just having a massive cry and a bit of a breakdown.

Anyway - sorry for the unload. DH is stressed out enough as it is with his business at the moment - it's hard to talk to him about it.

by the way - I'm booked into start Calmbirth classes on Wendesday. Does anyone have any first or second hand experiences with this birthing technique? I'm hoping this will start alleviating some of my almost panic attacks. I'm also doing Yoga and Acupuncture regularly - I should be way more chilled out than I am.....*ugh*

Thanks Girls.