Pregnancy after LT TTC #10

[wantbaby#2]

Hi Londonmiss~ Im not sure about how the braxton hicks contractions feel....its been way too long since having my son..LOL Im a newbie all over.
A good cup of tea is a must although i havent had one since i became pregnant.I only have had maybe 1 glass of cola this whole time,but have been getting my caffeine dose in the 2 lindt bunnies i have eaten

Had a trip to the hospital last friday.I think i may have lost some of my mucus plug but when i went to the delivery ward,i had an internal check and my cervix was closed.(Thankfully) so im not sure what it was.I always check when i wipe or anything and didnt notice anything at all until an hour or so later while preparing dinner,i looked in the toilet before going and saw a small bloody mucus bit.The thing is...i had been cutting the bloody yuk bits of the chicken i had been preparing and mum thinks it may have stuck on me and fallen off while i had been emptying my bladder!!
So its a mystery....chicken or plug?? Sounds soooo weird typing this...almost a comedy skit. BUT it did scare the crap out of me and i was in tears heading to emergency.I wouldnt DARE to tell my ob that it could have been the yucky chicken bits i had been cutting off.Im sure he would cross me off his list!!The nurses were fabulous and i checked out in a much better state.Bubs heartrate was great,lots of kicks etc and a closed and firm cervix so who knows.I would have died if Peanut had made her entry as she is too small to survive.The nurses said 25 weeks is the very earliest a bub 'may' survive.Its scary thinking we are all dying to get to the 12 week mark,before we think we will be o.k only to start worrying again about preterm labour.Now im madly counting and wishing i could hurry and get to the 28 week mark where survival (should anything happen) is alot better.Oh the stress!! It never ends.

Anyhow i have been fine.no weird feelings,no discharges,lots of strong kicks everyday so am feeling better.I have another app this thursday with my ob.

I have good news too...DH and i have FINALLY picked a name for our little girl.Im so pleased.I just hope we dont change our minds or she is being called 'Peanut'.LOL

[kyrawolfe]

Hi girls -=-

Wantbaby no.2 I hear ya hun Every trimester theres a new reason to panick and worry! then when bubs arrives you get a whole new reason to wry.. every lil sneeze cough.. funny looking thing on them etc etc etc You will be ok tho Im sure peanut is just playing games with you

YAY went to my OB appoint today midwife tells me Im 3/5 engaged and not to wry bout going over my due date! she said she wouldnt be surprised to see me back in the next few days! Im so happy to hear that my fingers and toes are completely crossed that this will be happening very soon!

I feel like a ticking timebomb just waiting for that first contraction or for my waters to break like they did with DS

Catch up soon just wanted to spread my happy news

<3 Ky

[barney]

Hi girls -=-



YAY went to my OB appoint today midwife tells me Im 3/5 engaged and not to wry bout going over my due date! she said she wouldnt be surprised to see me back in the next few days! Im so happy to hear that my fingers and toes are completely crossed that this will be happening very soon!




<3 Ky

yay sweety best of luck and hope to hear a b/a very soon
and also thinking of you lill miss labour vibes to you hunny.

[BOC]

Hi girls,

Just crashing the thread to check how you're all doing.

LM: Not too early. I had my first BH @ 18.5 weeks, I was standing at an outdoor wedding, it was in the middle of the ceremony and it was quite a shock. I was trying to keep a straight face so not to scare my friends. I had them every few days from then on and at about 28 weeks I had one afternoon where they got so regular I started recording and had my DH & mother on standby! But my Ob (and some internet research) said we actually get BH from around 8 weeks, but they generally can only be felt by the mother from around 20 weeks onwards.

Wantbaby#2: Hope everything goes ok and that it was just yukky chicken bits! I must admit, I did have to laugh though as that is totally something I would do! And I can just imagine the look on your Drs face if you had told him the chicken story!

and to everyone else!

[wantbaby#2]

BOC~ I love seeing all the pics of Jagger that you have on Facebook.He really is a cutie.
Yeah,i think it WAS the chicken and not me..hahaha.I was cutting all the yuk red bits off the chicken and constantly going to the loo,washing my hands in between every slice of the chicken so it s possible thats what it was.I also check EVERY time i empty my bladder that there is nothing strange an there wasnt that day.The nurse said (presuming it was the mucus plug)that as it was bright red,that i would probably have some lighter brown blood in the following days which i havnt had. I think on Thursday i will keep it to myself..LOL

Everyone else...why so quiet????

Was watching Kerrianne this morning and they were discussing cravings.
Just curious,What cravings have all of you girls had? Anything strange?

[BOC]

Awww thanks Wantbaby#2

Cravings... Ohhhh I had heaps...

At the very beginning of my pregnancy, from about 8 weeks on, I was craving barbecued onions! Poor DH had to cook them for me every night. I also craved red drink (which I never used to drink before), Subway and throughout the whole time I was getting 3am cravings for Coco Pops (again, which I never used to eat). I also developed a bit of a sweet tooth for cakes & biscuits, where I had formerly been a savoury person. I also don't eat eggs, the taste & smell of them makes me heave, but while pregnant I craved mini-quiches!

Towards the very end it was McChicken burgers with Sweet & Sour sauce instead of McChicken sauce on them.


One strange thing though, I actually went off chocolate! Used to love it, and do again now but couldn't stomach it thru the pregnancy.

[Lenny]

Seph - I know you are happy for your friend. Of course you are. But you will never not be a LTer. It sticks. Even once you have gone on to have a beautiful bub and you are totally in love with your little family - you still have twinges and pangs each time you hear someone is pg. It's natural. I still do it. I don't wish my journey on anyone - don't get me wrong. But I do have a bit of the green-eyed monster, when I hear the 'omg, i'm pg and we didn't even try!' stories

It's good that you can recognise it, and accept that it's a result of your own painful journey. Just as long as you don't beat yourself up, y'hear!
Hugs from me.

[kyrawolfe]

hello my bellies <3

cravings Ive had included raw potatoes... chocolate.. curry.. red rooster and sweet things

TBH I have to admit I think Im getting a little bit of anti natal depression.. I really wanted to avoid it this time its so awful every day feels like such a drag and you start to have all these really bad thoughts about everything everyone and every situation

I had it with DS for the last couple months of my pregnancy but I only feel like Ive started to feel this way the past week or so. Its an odd feeling.. Like your always alone and restless.. wanting to get out but at the same time couldnt be bothered doing anything.. feel like you have no friends and no one cares even when they are constantly getting in touch with you and catching up. I feel so intensly needy and mopey all the time and heavy and unable to move.. Like this big fat whale that sits on the couch all day and cant do anything for herself.. iTS PROBABLY JUST A REFLECTION OF BEING FED UP WITH BEING (oops caps) pregnant and wanting things to move along.. being unable to drive or walk anywhere and not having anyone to take me out (dh cant drive) and unmotivated to get out of the house even tho im sick of the four walls, trying to deal with my toddler alone while DH is at work while finding it so hard to because im so uncomfortable and tired.. and just all round over it and wanting to get my body and my life back. Im always a very restless kind of person and I like to keep my life busy with different things (work/kids/ friends/ errands/ outings etc etc) but these last weeks ive given all of it up and am just at home twiddling my thumbs.. Im willing to bet its exactly why Ive come crashing down with such a miserable mood.

Im so glad I can vent on this forum.. sorry to bring the mood down I could really use some feedback if anyone has any suggestions on good ways to shake off depression for these last couple weeks I have to continue to live this way ?? I dnt know.. I really dnt wanna have to talk to a social worker or counsellor because I hate the feeling they give me like Im being put on the spot questioned and then lectured on what I need to do by a complete stranger.. Ironically Im tsaying this to complete strangers but this is different.. I feel more in touch with mumto bes on here then some counsellor that I know is only talking to me because its there job..

And I dont really see how I can try to "keep myself busy" which is what would work really.. because I just dnt have it in me anymore to walk 3 km just to get out to dinner or shops of a friends place for a coffee. I really wish DH drove at this point so he could take me out somewhere. He really wants to but again, Im not up for walking and what is he gonna do carry me? lol. I dnt want to start bugging my friends to whisk me out because I already bug them enough to come over and do things with me and after a while I just start to feel so needy.

wow this is long and probably getting a little on the repetative/boreing side.. So ill stop it there.. I just figure some of you can understand what it feels like so I dnt feel so crazy and alone with all these funny emotions.. Fingers crossed bubs pops out of me real soon

OH and BTW lil miss Im sending you big labour vibes today hope to catch u all soon <3 Ky

[lise]

ky - thanks for the reasurring words regarding our scan. I'm continuing to think of the Chicklet as a girl and if it comes out as a boy, well there you go. I know what you mean about how you're feeling. I had to complete a depression questionnaire at my OB appointment last week (not sure if that's routine at 28 weeks or just because i've had a history of depression/anxiety???) and didn't want to admit on the form that i've been in tears lately. I know why i've been in tears, because DH is always working and i'm at home alone all the time, but usually it wouldn't get ot me like that. I mean DH and I had 12 months of living in two different states so I can certainly cope with it. But anyway, don't feel that you're alone in feeling like that ky, you're certainly not. Unfortunately, keeping busy is a good way of dealing with those emotions for me and I have a list of things I like to do, like calling a friend, painting my nails, even something as silly as brushing my hair or plucking my eyebrows...! I realise it's a bit harder with DS around but maybe you could come up with a list of your own? Something else I also found really useful was to challenge myself - not in terms of running a race or anything like that, but to challenge my thinking when i'm having those thoughts, so to ask myself where the evidence is for what i'm thinking/feeling. I too often feel like my friends don't care etc., but I know they really do it's just I want to do more stuff than they do.

I hope this helps somewhat, certainly don't want to sound patronising or make you feel worse at all. At the least, i'm sending some hugs your way

Seph - I agree with Lenny. I think there will always be a part of us that is LTTTCer, and although we'll have our own bundles soon it's still hard to think of what we had to go through to get them. Sending some hugs your way too

Wantbaby - cravings - CHOCOLATE, CHOCOLATE, CHOCOLATE!!! But i've finally had to give up because I realised it was giving me heartburn! Glad to know that things are okay and the red bits were chickens bits

Londonmiss - I think i've just had my first Braxton Hicks contractions today, very funny feeling!!

lilmiss - sending labour vibes your way still xx

Hello to everyone else. Apologies if i've missed you - i'm trying to finish quickly and beat DH to the car as he's actually finished early for once! Will write more again when I get home xx

[LondonMiss]

Kyra - I hope you are ok. I feel for you - it must be very hard once you are waiting for the 'end'. I'm not there and can't really offer any help at all (so you'll wonder why on earth I don't stop at this point , but....) it seems to me that this is JUST the point where you should ask your friends for help. I know you don't want to put them out anymore, and I feel the same way, but I've recently done it and felt a lot better. As you know we don't have a car, and I've been stopped using my bike, so I basically have to do food shopping by tram, which is fine except lugging it all to the tram stop. I recently emailed friends, and said, if you could just take me when you are going, it would be great. And they all said, don't know why you didn't ask sooner and I felt a bit of a pill... I'm sure they won't think you are needy - and if they, if you can't be needy at 37 weeks, well they are rubbish friends!!!!!

Until the day I die I shall be glad I found Belly Belly, and the chance to ask things and share and so on. I think telling strangers can be the most useful thing sometime.. and I hope we're more use than a counsellor

I too have challenges, although more in terms of a daily to do list, and even if I'm only studying that day, I always one appointment. So even if it's (to use Lise's list) that I will work until 10am and then I will pluck my eyebrows... (mine are so pale, I could pluck mine off entirely and I bet no one would notice but that's a deviation....)

Cravings - capers, coconut ice, raspberries, hardboiled eggs with sweet chilli sauce all over them. Hot toast with more butter than a dietician would like.... oh I'm hungry now!

And now for a TMI. I'm getting a little, well, moist... down under.... this is mildly disconcerting. Am I normal or just a gloopy/ sweaty/ leaky bucket of wierdness? (this isn't meant to sound like a bad porn movie!)

[lise]

Okay, back again ladies. Didn't quite beat DH to the car but that's okay. And we made it home before 6pm, that's the earliest he's been home in months!! You'd think if I was this excited that i'd actually be talking to him, but he had a huge rant about work all the way home which to be honest was rather boring, so i've left him to his own devices in the kitchen while I type this

Londonmiss - i'm hearing you on that front and don't worry, i'm exactly the same! Not very pleasant really...

BOC and smithy - lovely to hear from you both Hope all is going well. As usual, i've been sneaking some peeks at your photos - what gorgeous little bubs!!

AFM - well, not much to report, though as I said to LM, I think I had my first Braxton Hicks contractions today! It's kind of scary to think that i'm getting close enough for those...!

We've pretty much put the nursery together now, just have to decorate it. I must admist, i'm a little concerned about progressing with some of the girly ideas I had before just in case the OB was right but as I said also, i've decided to ignore her thoughts as she herself said she wasn't confident at all and wasn't very good at that sort of thing, whereas the sonographer was very confident.

I'm counting down days at work now until I can start mat leave - i'm taking the full 6 weeks off beforehand as i've decided this is my last chance for quite some time to relax and do my own thing! How close to your due dates are the rest of you planning on working till?

Have a lovely evening ladies xx